Presently Prioritizing Peaceful Passage
I would like to go ahead and speak on “Presently Prioritizing Peaceful Passage”.
My number one value in my life right now is peace. Peace is the very most important thing to me in my life right now. And I'm so grateful for that. Because it has certainly not always been that way. I have spent a good amount of time in my life feeling angry. Not even really sure what I was angry about. But just feeling angry.
In reflecting, it was a dissatisfaction with where I was at in my life. But I did not seem to realize that. I didn't realize the power I had to change that at the time.
Mary J. Blige came out with the song “no more drama”. I'm not sure if that's exactly the name of it but she was feeling it! Like she was at a point, she was done. And I love the song. I love the song I sang along with the song. It was great. It has not been until these last several years where that song just hits a little bit differently.
Because I am at a point in my life where I do not allow drama.
I do not want drama in my life.
I want peace in my life and that song just hits a little bit differently now.
I have disrupted my peace in so many ways over the years and it can be challenging to know how to get that. Like, I always longed for it. Like growing up, you hear about the peace that passes all understanding. And I don't know that I felt that almost ever growing up. And in my you know prior years, there was always an angstiness. A dissatisfaction in my soul that just I don't know I…
There is now peace in my soul. Like deeply rooted peace in my soul. And I'm so utterly grateful. I'm so grateful! This is why my cup overfloweth. Because I am so grateful for the peace that resides in my soul.
The process of determining peace to be my very highest value was most prevalent and took root when I decided to do dry January in 2020. I really was tired of the, you know, vicious cycle that is addiction and numbing and distracting. It's a vicious, vicious cycle and I decided I was tired. Like I just wanted peace. Like I I didn't wanna wake up in the morning wondering what I had done or what I need to apologize for or what an asshole I had been or you know. Because I spent a lot of years with those feelings. And good God I would never I would never choose that path again. I am so grateful for where I am. but deciding that I wanted peace helped turn my values away from numbing myself and and just wanting to feel good into actually healing myself and feeling really really good and I'm so grateful. I'm so I'm so grateful that I chose that path. I recognize that that path is not an easy choice. That it is, it is not an easy choice at all. Numbing and distractions can hold you prisoner like nobody's business. And finding something more powerful than that is critical, but very challenging!
So what does peace look like to me?
Peace means that I follow through with the things that I say that I'm going to do.
Peace means that I engage in those daily day deeds, those small deeds, “Daily Deeds Dictate Directional Dominance”. Those daily deeds that make me feel good about myself.
I do things that nourish my soul.
I go engage in nature and “Manifest Mandatory Magical Moments”.
That is tremendously beneficial for peace. Peace also comes from knowing that I have no ill feelings towards anyone.
That peace comes from the love that I have for myself.
I am so grateful for that peace.
I am at peace with me.
“Disembodied Demons Delay Development” and they delayed my development for a significant amount of time.
And and shitstorm tidal wave of pain in my wake for a lot of people.
I also am able to fully engage in peace because I have “Peaceful Past Production Perspective”. Because I have forgiven myself for the things that I've done. And I can only feel comfortable in forgiving myself for the things that I've done because I know that I'm doing better. I can't fix any of the shit that I caused. I can't. I can't take it back, but I can choose to do better. I can choose to. I can choose a different path moving forward and I have diligently done so. And having followed through with that, and continuing to do so on a daily basis, gives me peace in my soul. I wish this for all of you. I wish for you a peace that passes all understanding. It does exist. I promise it exists. I don't know that I could've ever fathomed it, but it exists and I would love to help encourage you to cultivate that within yourself so our Alliterate as fuck Mindfulness Head Rhyme is “Presently Prioritizing Peaceful Passage”.
May we continue to learn and grow!
Please Prioritize Self-Care and Mindfulness
ALL MY LOVE
AbFabNerd
